Yesterday I went to the noon meeting. A friend there spoke to me about a current struggle with his outlook on life. He is seeking the solution to recover from this bout.

Last night I was pondering something I share about the feelings asociated with using. I sometimes describe the feeling I used to experience right before the act. In a moment I was taken back to that place. I have done this before for teh sake of sharing my experience so I was not afraid. That moment turned into 5 minutes. I began to get drawn into those feelings. I set them aside and went back to what I was doing.

A short time later the thoughts came back. Again I was drawn in. Again, I set the aside after a few minutes. A short time later I had teh same exprience and this went on for some time until I began to indulge in the feelings.

This morning I had to make a serious effort to be rid of these thoughts. I sensed that I could be drawn into an obsession.