This is the longest gap that I can ever remember between written evening reviews and not relapsing.

One night this week I had a dream that I was using and drinking. Another night I dreamed that I was watching someone else relapse. Thursday night I broke out in irritability.

Each night I was exhausted and busy with the kids until I passed out. I said prayers with the kids each night and myself as I fell asleep a couple of the nights.

The past few days have been very busy and very good. I have been graced with the fruits of sobriety and I am grateful. I just have to resolve to stay on track and not allow the good things in my life become more important than honesty about my condition, inner acceptance of the nature of the disease, willingness to continue to put God's Will first.

These past few days I have thought a lot about the practical application of spirituality. I thought that my greatest mission in life is to learn to speak about spirituality and God in non-religious terms but to speak the same truth. Today I thought about renaming my site something like practicalspirituality.org.

The past week I have caught myself being too competitive about my son's baseball. I realized that I have begun to have an expectation on him to perform well and to win. I realized that I have begun to rely on my instinct of competitiveness and it is interfering with my relationship with him. I asked for God's help to accept that he is very young and that he just wants to have fun.

Today he played well but they lost the game. I am grateful for the opportunity to be on the team with him. This afternoon we went for a long bike ride together.