This morning I had to pray about my fears and resolve to trust in God from the moment I woke up. The sleep I got helped me feel a lot better afer feeling sick yesterday. The Daily Reflection was about Faith and Fear. By the time I left the house I was focused on God's work and being a father rather than our materialistic troubles.

At mid-morning my wife called me and told me that she talked to the mortgage people that our due date is after I get paid so we should be ok. It seemed that God took care of us once I found acceptance.

Today I thought a lot about faith and reason. I thought about how faith is for self-control. I thought about how humanistic ideologies lack the power of theology because they are dependent on the ideas of the human originator and individual human beings are ivariably fallible. Theological moral codes are more powerful because they originate from a being greater than humanity and the are discerned by many human beings in union with the Creator. Human beings still differ and misuse theology but God most recently came to earth in the person of Jesus Christ and cleared it up for us all.

I went to the noon meeting and we read the chapter "Working With Others". I talked about how the aspect of sharing my story made my life livable without shame, remorse, and guilt of the past because it converted my dark past into a great asset. I realized also that the Power of the program makes it possible to face the past without fear of falling into the obsessions. I don't have to avoid the past and my old behaviors make sense in light of the disease.

Tonight I had a wonderful time practicing with my son. I couldn't believe his enthusiasm this evening. We had many moments of companionship.

Tonight I settle in with peace of mind and contentment.

Thanks be to God.