This morning I thought about the decision part of step 3. I think what is important here is making a solid committment to do God's will without question and with great resolve. The reason for this is because I will forget why I am doing this. I must have the resolve to trudge through my mental blank spots, periods of unwillingness, and trials of faith.

Yesterday I got to go to church with only my oldest son. We didn't have to sit in the cry room and we got to sit in the third row. My son was much better behaved than ever before.

Yesterday I went on an errand to buy a used TV. We had to carry the TV and it was very heavy and we had to carry it through an awkward tight spot. I m only writing this to remind myself that I had a busy Sunday morning. In thinking about yesterday I keep thinking it was a wasted day because I was so tired. But this is not true. It was a fruitful day of rest and regeneration. Most of all because of the union I was able to make with the Lord. But also because I needed the physical rest.

Last night my wife went to her meeting.

Today my wife got angry at me because our middle son didn't wake up on time. She blamed me for no getting to bed on time. I countered that it was because she didn't wake up in time. We got into an argument which I think I won. But I didn't win, I feel like a failure because I was not patient, kind, tolerant and loving.

At the noon meeting we read pages 64 - 66 about the resentment inventory.

'nuff said