Yesterday morning I woke up late again. I managed to get the boys ready and get to church on time. But when we got home I was very tired and couldn't ever really get going all day.

In the morning my wife told me that we were $200 overdrawn and that our mortgage company had sent us a letter stating that by a past date they were going to start foreclosure on us.

I felt a lot of fear. I felt a lot of remorse for not staying on course financially 2 months ago when we did our budget. I wanted to blame my wife for not doing her part to dilligently stick to our financial plan.

Yesterday was a test of my willingness to turn to the Father of Light in all things. The Gospel reading yesterday was about Jesus being the Truth, the Way and the Life.

During the day we watched the Holy Father at Ground Zero and giving mass at Yankee stadium. Later in the evening I watched the atheist program and this was the highlight of my day. The reason this was the highlight of my day is because I felt like I had good debate points for everything they talked about. I also felt like I might be close to being able to debate with someone about this type of subject and maintain emotional control. I thought about how Pope Benedict says the faith is no complete without reason. That faith without reason is not complete.

I sleepwalked through the evening and prayed a lot for God to remove my fears.