“The Kingdom of heaven is like a net thrown into the sea,
which collects fish of every kind."

Today I found an atheist web site that made windy arguments based on the typical presumptions of a cursory understanding of faith. As I went down the list I recalled how my perspective was once just like them. But more importantly I was astounded at how there were none that defied practical rebuttal that didn't depend on writings or language or reason that someone with a truly open mind might not concede were plausible.

I even found elements of the site to be inspirational in edification of my own faith.

I read that Albert Einstein stated that the Bible was "honorable and primitive" and I realized that I had found the description that I had always looked for in primitive. I thought of how God in nurturing our development might have conceded that we were honorable enough to save and that this would require his intercession at some point. So, wanting to help us as early in our development as possible but close enough to our maturation to be relevant he revealed himself in this primitive time.

"Can I not do to you, house of Israel, as this potter has done? says the LORD.
Indeed, like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, house of Israel."

I identified with the contentions of the website author and I recognized his need to find a universal code by which to live and be free. But I recognized the fallacy, deception, and danger when I read of how the author thought human beings were capable of enough morality to succeed without the commandment of a creator. The author also spoke of convincing as many people as possible of this point of view.

"The angels will go out and separate the wicked from the righteous
and throw them into the fiery furnace,"

I feel compelled to make it my life's mission to seek and write the best apologetics I can.

“Then every scribe who has been instructed in the Kingdom of heaven
is like the head of a household who brings from his storeroom
both the new and the old.”

I got to go to the noon meeting today where we spoke of step 4.

My mom bought us a nice dinner this afternoon.

I got to spend time in my quiet, cool place with my daughters this evening.

Thanks be to God for the treasures of heaven.

“The Kingdom of heaven is like a treasure buried in a field,
which a person finds and hides again"

The greatest problem facing mankind is control of the will. I used to think that the greatest problems facing mankind were worldy problems like the environment, political events, wars, and the economy. Now my perspective has changed in that I see that all problems relate to problems with the will of men. If this one problem were addressed in the sort of effort that goes into worldly problems then all the worldly problems would be resolved.

I used to attribute many of the worldly problems to world religions and belief systems. Now I realize that spirituality is intended to address ttheproblem of the will.

What a treasure.

I woke up VERY tired this morning.

Today I felt a LOT less fearful about losing my job. I did the best I can and did not worry very much about failure. I worked very hard and did a good job.

I didn't get to make it to the meeting today, I regret this now though I didn't at the time.

Tonight we had a good little evening I and I wish to get to bed on time.

Thanks be to God for a good day.

This morning I found peace of mind and forgiveness for my wife.

I thought some more about the principles for me to live by. The reason I decided to define them was because I imagined a conversation in which I spoke of living a principle-based life and I was prompted to convey them.

Principles I live by...

Other centeredness will lead me to wisdom,
Control of self will lead me to good decisions,
Faith will lead me to perseverence,
Wisdom, good decisions, and perseverence, will lead me to success.
Success does not mean happiness.
Happiness is an inside job.
Action speaks louder than words.

I thought more of being a treasure seeker today. Of seeking wisdom above all. Wisdom to facilitate fellowship among men.

Today at work I felt much better.

I got to go to the noon meeting.

This evening I played in the dirt with my daughter. I sat in the shade and a cool wind blew through the high grass that appeared a bright green in the light of dusk. I watched as she laughed and bounced and smiled at me.

The answer is blowin' in the wind.

Thanks be to God for the fruits of the Spirit.

This morning I woke up very tired from the work I did yesterday. It was questionable as to whether I would make the 9 am mass. My wife did not even stir. I checked on the kids and they were unusually sound asleep. I watched the "Litany of The Sacred Heart" for my meditation. Normally I get so deeply moved by this devotion that I ge lost from the world. But today was the opposite, as I watched I got lost in thoughts of worldly matters and fears. I know that it was an effective meditation because I lost track of time and it was over but I also felt that I was in need of spiritual restoration.

I decided that it would be in my wife's best interest if I went ahead amd went to early mass so that I could babysit the baby since 11 o'clock mass is too late for her. My oldest son and I went to mass. The readings, responsorial, and song lyrics were all especially edifying for me. During the epiclesis I was startled by a period of ecstacy that culminated after communion.

As we were waiting for the announcements my son looked up to me and asked if the Tooth Fairy was real or if it were just the parents that put the gift under the pillow. I had to tell him the truth. We both laughed about it. After mass we went for a nice little walk and had a talk about these things. Funny though, he insisted that Santa was real because he was a real saint, a spirit, and "because how else would the cookies be missing?".

I came home in the best spirits I have been for days and I couldn't wait to share my thoughts and feelings with my wife. When I got home she jumped all over me because of my policy that it is her responsibility to get herself up. She decided that she could not make it to church and she blamed me for it. She had some harsh wors for me including that church was nt just an exclusive club for me. I immediately asked God to save me from being angr and I did a good job of not fighting back. But, I let it ruin my good spirits and I was out-of-sync the rest of the day.

I had to admit later in the day that I was not turning over my anger at some level. I was not being forgiving either.

I took a long nap in the middle of the day and I wondered if I was emotionally exhausted. I had a terrifying dream of losing my kids in a flooded river.

When I woke up I let my little ones pile on top of me. In the afternoon I allowed my son to turn off my baseball game to watch his magic show.

I got a voicemail from someone who really needed a meeting on my side of town and I called them back with the info. In the evening I got a call to go unlock the meeting house. I got to go and fellowship a little and to play a game of washers. I was grateful for these service opportunities.

Thanks be to God for protection from the arrows that fly by day and the terrors that fly by night.


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Principles I live by...

Other centeredness leads to wisdom,
Control of the self leads to good decisions,
Faith is the source of perseverence,
Wisdom, plus good decisions, plus perseverence, lead to success.
Success does not mean happiness.
Happiness is an inside job.
Action speaks louder than words.






When I got home my wife jumped

This morning my wife went to garage sales for resale stuff while I got to take care of and feed the kids.

At mid-morning she came home and I got to go to the meeting house and clean up our recreation area. I tried to take my oldest son but he didn't want to go and I didn't make him go. Then on the way there I realized that it was my job to make him get out of the house so I turned around and went back and got him. The work was hard but I found a lot of comfort in it and my fears were relieved. I had fun and I got to play some washers and hang out with friends.

This afternoon my wife went to a cooking class for our autistic son all afternoon and I got to take care of the kids. We spent some time outside in the evening.

I thougt a lot about the story we read last night, "Because I'm an Alcoholic".

I am grateful that I got to do service work today for my group and for my family.

Thanks be to God for another great day.

I went to work thinking I might get walked today, I was grateful that it did not happen.

It was too busy of a day today and I felt like I stepped on a mine this afternoon.

I have to admit that the latter part of the day I fell back into a low grade sense of fear.

I got to go to a meeting tonight.

I am grateful to be home, I am gtrateful for this moment.

I had a good morning and went to the noon meeting. Our topic was the end of step 3 and the beginning of tradition 3. It was a great meeting with many people there and an old member who is very active in the fellowship. I spoke about my trials with lack of willingness and how it was key to a complete surrender of my will. I also talked about how by surrendering my will and allowing it to be re-formed I was able to experience joy in my life again.

At the end of the day I felt like I was walking through a minefield juggling han grenades again. I am kinda worried that I will be laid off tomorrow. I had to ask God to relieve my anxiety on the way home today. I am going to strive to find that place of right perspective about this again.

Today the thing I could have done better was to ask for help from my coworkers at the end of the day.

Last night and tonight I got to speak to a sponsee.

Yesterday I started out feeling fairly demoralized but I stopped and made sure to do a focused meditation in the morning.

I ended the day feeling a lot better although I was exhausted and fell asleep with one of my kids in my arms.

This morning I heard a priest talk about how important it is that we be willing to forgive others. He spoke about how important humility is in being able to forgive. I realized that I hadn't thought about forgiving those with whom I disagree right now. He also spoke of how we discern God's will. I almost didn't keep listening but I stuck with it. Then he said one of the most important things I have heard in a long time. He said that the adversary speaks in the form of desolation and that the Holy Spirit speaks to us as consolation.

Today at mid-morning I overheard a friend's conversation that opened a window of perspective that gave me a great new sense of freedom in my job situation. My friend spoke of his demoralization and of the history there. I realized that no one there is in great standing. I realized that I am not a bad worker. I realized that no matter how hard I try it is out of my control. I thought about how I can just do the best that I can for my own conscience and I will be ok no matter the outcome.

My feeling of desolation was broken, I felt connsolation come in.

I got to go to the noon meeting today.

We had a nice evening outside. At some point I felt a profound sense of privelege to have the children I have. I realized just how precious they are. I resolved not to manhandle them.

Thanks be to God for a great day.

Today I had a meeting with 3 of my bosses. It was not fun. I was grateful for one of them who wanted to help me build back up a buffer from termination but I left feeling as though things were not better. I felt humiliated and demoralized.

I feel like I don't deserve to be placed on the verge of being fired for "what could happen" or "who I might not respect". None of my mistakes actually cost or lost anything. None of my mistakes were outside of what you might expect from someone in the first year of doing the job that I do.

Nevertheless I must ask God to remove my resentment and fear.

This is no different than my previous inventory on this matter, I must simply turn it over to him and remember that the Father do'eth the works.

Today I thought mostly of myself.

I should have been more kind and loving with my wife.

Tomorrow I should try again to more fully trust that God will take care of us.

This morning we had a very hard time at church. The baby kids misbehaved terribly. I tried my best to restrain my anger. I had to pull out of the communion line when one of the kids was spnning by his arm and the baby was crying loudly. We eventually had to leave early. I came home worn out. My wife pointed out to me that I was manhandling the kids inappropriately.

Our scripture reading today was three parables.

I slept 3 hours in the afternoon.

This evening things mellowed out and we had a nice little dinner.

This morning I stayed with the babies while my wife an oldest went to garage sales.
I mowed part of the lawn and did dishes and cleaned.
At midday my son and I went for haircuts.
In the afternoon I played washers with my son and chaperoned the kids while they rode trikes.
In the evening I took my son for batting practice.
Tinight I played a game of chess with my son, he won.
Today I thought about how the parable of the sower is about denial.

What is the rich soil?
- Priority
- Discipline
- Understanding

My son was proud that he won his first chess game.
Today I thought about how the sun and the moon in the sky with a face is a powerful symbol of God.

Thanks ge to God for a great little day.

Yesterday was a difficult day for me but I persevered and got through it. At noon I got to go to the meeting. The topic was step 2 in the twelve and twelve. As we read the chapter I noticed some parallels to the parable of the sower. The chapter spoke of the person who had belief but had selfish or worldy motives. I thought about how the parable spoke of 4 dimensions of faith starting with the person who knew of God but faith never took root, then the person with a strong beginning but shallow faith that was short lived, then the one who has faith but hangs on to worldliness and his faith is choked out by anxiety, then the faith that grows in rich soil.

I always thought that you either had faith or you didn't but now I realize that there can levels of faith that are not deep enough to bear fruit.

Last night my wife got very angry at me because I fell asleep while she was out late and the kids went nuts in the house.

Today my other boss had a talk with me. This was favorable for my situation. My situation did not make sense to him. I wish I would have done a little better job of expressing my thoughts to him. But nevertheless I am grateful that my situation is getting an objective review. This afternoon we had a team meeting. I was able to be a good contributor.

Tonight I got to go to my meeting.

Thanks be to God for the fruits of faith.

This morning I made a big mistake. I woke up at 5 am and fell back asleep until 6:12 am. I then got mixed up and thought that it was 5:12 am. I didn't realize that I was late until it was 5 minutes until my start time. Then I didn't call my new boss directly. I called the main line and then called my old boss thinking that my current boss doesn't arrive until 9:00 am.

I almost got fired. I had to endure a painful chastisement from my boss and I didn't feel like I could speak truthfully to him when he asked me if I thought he was overreacting. I couldn't remember my decision making process when he asked me why I didn't call my boss directly and I thought that it was because I didn't have his number memorized.

I was very afraid and demoralized today and I was buried in work. I like having lots of work but I was teribly distracted and it all felt like a big minefield.

I had to ask God for help amd turn to his kingom for perspective.

I didn't get to go to the noon meeting today.

My wife gave e a lot of moral support tonight and helped ease my fears.

My family gave me comfort also.

Today I got to go to the noon meeting downtown for the first time since the start of the quarter. I was grateful for this opportunity.

All day I thought about the baseball player who is a recovered addict. It was a national news story. It is a great inspiration for me that we can go to any heights with God's help.

This evening I kept the kids while my wife went to her meeting.

Tonight I got to watch the all star game with my son.

Today I didn't feel tired or sick or dis-ordered.

I thought about God's presence several times today.

After sleeping so much yesterday I did not sleep one minute last night. In the morning I asked for the right guidance and I did the right thing and went to work. It was a little tough at times but it was not too bad and I made it through the day.

Tonight I watched a recovered addict hi 28 home runs in the home run derby.

Last night I didn't do an evening review.

Yesterday I had a busy day and spent a lot of time outdoors in the 100 degree heat. It wasn't a bad day or terribly hard work or anything, I got to do much needed yardwork and play a lot with my kids. By the end of the day I was exhausted and irritable with my wife. Throughout the day yesterday I had a persistent sense of self-pity.

I really needed to do inventory last night.

This morning we planned to go to mass early as my wife had a lunch event planned with some family who were passing through. Early in the morning she or I did not get up. I kept telling myself that I couldn't do it if she didn't get up but the truth was that I felt terrible and couldn't wake up.

We never made it to mass but I did watch it on TV and make spiritual communion as best as possible with the kids being disruptive.

I had to nap throughout the day and at one point felt like it was 8 pm and the day was over. But it was not.

It was mid-afternoon and I got out of bed and decided to start over.

My mom was visiting and made us a wonderful enchilada dinner. My dad showed up and brought my son a much needed package of baseballs. My son told me the outcome of the afternon base ball game that I missed. We all had another great Sunday afternoon and I felt like God had restored me from my depression.

In the evening my wife had a re-sale transaction at the house so this gave me the opportunity to go to my 12-step meeting.

Before our meeting I got to talk to a guy about my experience in making it back from relapse by guiding others who were newer in recovery than me.

The topic of our meeting was a reading from "A Vision For You". In particular, "..you cannot transmit something you haven't got".

After the meeting a good friend shared his 5th step/confession experience with me.

I rode home with a vision of of purpose that was greater than my recent troubles at work. I thought of the passion of Jesus and found identification that helped put things back in to perspective for me. I visualized an idea that I can persevere in confidence despite whatever the outcome is so long as God's will is my primary purpose.

Thanks be to God for a vision revealed.

Today my fear rose up several times and I had to turn it over. Overall my spirits were good and I was able to be a productive and effective worker and a contributer in team meetings.

By the end of the dqay though my fear was like static in the background.

I got to go to my meeeting tonight. We read the personal story titled "student of life". I found many great experiences that i relaed to and that were relevant to what was shared by others. But I never was moved to chime in and didn't get to share. However somehow it felt right. After the meeting I pulled away with a friend to play washers and I felt like we missed talking to other people after the meeting.

I turns out that my friend was going through a tough time and I got to talk to him about it a great deal. I also got to share my inventory with him.

All was as God intended today.

5:30 AM 7-11-08
Last night my wife and my son interrupted my review. I went to bed resentful. This morning I was woken up by my wife and yoounger son and then I started thinking about mytroubles at work and I couldn't go back to sleep. For the first time since this all started I lay i bed awake at night. I started to plan how I was going to have a talk with my wife but then I handed over my resentment to God.

These are the basic things I still need to review:
I had expectations at work
I have been living on ,y past accomplishments
I Need to accept that I will be living with uncertainty in my work for a long time

I am grateful that I was able to get to sleep last night without losing sleep over the incident that happened yesterday.
When I woke up this morning I thought of it right away and started to have desolate feelings. But I was instantly aware of this and set about my spiritual activities in earnest. God was very present for me this morning. I am overwhelmed with gratitude at the way that God has comforted me today.

I had some ups and downs this morning but I had some epiphenies and spiritual growth spurts as that are blowing my low spots out of the water.
I had a hard time being motivated to work in the morning.
At times I thought about just quitting.
I realized that I had made another mistake that could have been seen as major and could cost me my job.
I was very afraid again.
I thought about why I was afraid.
I was seeing things with my limited vision.
I remembered how I thought in the morning about how God has always provided for me.
I thought about psalm 23.
I thought today of how much more important my role as a spiritual worker is in God's kingdom than my worldly job.
I thought about what an opportunity this is to demonstrate God's omnipotence.
I found desire to break my worldly and sensual dependencies.
Later in the day I receieved an email that seemed to indicate the incident had come in under the radar.
My Boss singled me out in front of the group as a lone success on a particular task today. This was a poignient moment for me.
I made it through the day and felt a great sense of recovery.

I made a couple of calls to some of my fellows in recovery on the way home.

My wife was very supportive and loving to me again this evening, this is HUGE to me.

I got to do our evening family activities and I again found solace in my vocation as a father.

Thanks be to God for this day and this life.

I was given a "Last Chance" interview at work today. It came out of nowhere, I couldn't believe it. I felt like I had been stabbed in the back of the neck. I knew I had gotten in trouble but I didn't expect to be told that "the wheels had fallen off of my bus" and that I had to recover my "brand" or lose my job.

I was afraid.
I was resentful.
I went through a series of emotional low spots and shut down a couple of times.
I was grateful to be spiritually awake to what was happening in me and to address these feelings objectively.
I had to face my instinctive drives that were being threatened.
I had to ask God for help, I had to ask Him to re-cover me at my core.
I had to face and resist a descent into self-pity.
I had to resist my instinct to fight, to dwell on it, and to hash out plans.
I had to consinder what God has done for me and his plans for me and how this fits into the scheme of things.
On the way home I found relief and freedom in adressing my fear and placing myself in God's hands.

I had to come home and attend to family responsibilities. I had to let it go and be there and not let it manifest into anger at my family.
Once I came home I wasn't able to process my feelings any further.
I kind of shut down again.
At one point I overreacted angrily at my son for something small but I caught it instantly and thought of my role in God's kingdom as a loving father and I resumed my confident spirit as my son's provider and mentor and I showed him love and joy.
My wife was very supportive.
My wife went to her meeting so I was alone with the kids.
I listened to Fr. Barron and found some perspective. He talked of the three temptations of sensual pleasure, glory, and power.
I realized that I have placed too much dependency on the glory of that job.
I have placed too much dependence on my sensual comfort.

I realized that I have to trust in God.

I got resentful that I didn't get a chance to write as it was very late and my kid was calling me to finish his bath. I jotted down what happened but I am writing this out at the end of the day on 7-9.

I see now that God gave me the support that I needed.

This morning I jumped out of bed without realizing it and forgot to pray. It wasn't late yet but I knew that it would be tight. I resolved to forget the time and to stop and pray anyway. I actually went into deep contemplation and lost track of time, I came out and prayed until I felt re-imaged. I made it to work 1:00 minute late.

I recalled or deacon's words yesterday when he referred to the world a "out there in the valley of the shadow of death".

Today a work I was buried and the sh@* hit the fan. Two of our bosses got angry with our team. I felt as if I were in teh eye of the hurricane. I thought of the words of psalm 23, " will fear no evil, or you are with me; yur rod and your staff, they comfort me. "

Tonight I read about a new program called "The Cleaner" in which a man rescues drug addicts. I thought about I get to live that in real life except I don't rescue them, I am there with a way out.

I got to spend time with my little ones and take a bike ride with my oldest. Gotta go now the middle one is crying for water.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Thanks be to God.

This morning I had a really hard time waking up. I started to fall into self pity or self loathing about it and then I resolved (and with God's help) to accept it. Then I realized that it really wasn't that late. It was still before nine when I fed the kids. Even though I fell back asleep for a short nap we made it to church on time and everything was ok.

Our readings were about denying the flesh and being humble not fighting. This was very interesting given an encounter with an individual who quoted that very scripture last night. I had a dilemma with this individual because he expressed a lot of strong opinions, judgements, and conflicts even though he professed the steps and the Lord very well. I spoke to him and he used this scripture to justify his opinions, to judge another and to rationalize his fight. As he spoke to me the quote came to mind "And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone,...".

Today after mass I realized that I must do the same for this individual. I must let go of my strong opinions, quit judgeing him and not try to change him with a fight.
My ponsor said to me that the truth does not need to defend itself. My part can be to be meek and humble of heart buit be strong in the truth about myself.

We had a nice little dinner today for my dad's birthday.

This moning I had to accept that we were late getting up due to the late night party. I had to resist unjustifiably being angry at my wife or myself.

Today I stuck tp the plan of getting the kids to go outside in the morning snd in the evening even though I didn't do it well or for a long time.

I started to feel down today about low energy but rembered the late night and the good cause for it.

Tonight I decided to go to the meeting so that I would leave the house at least once today.

The topic was on step 11, the evening review.

I didn't share. I regret that I didn't share because some people shared that they do not do the evening review perfectly. The description that they gave was of doing it in their head and falling asleep before they make it sometimes. I couldn't ever get centered enough to keep it simple so I didn't ever jump in. But if I did I think I would have done best to share that I do the evening review perfectly. I have to. For me "alcohol is a subtle foe" means that my relapses come without warning. I can't trust my feelings or using thoughts as predictors of relapse. The only warning I get is that I am not doing some steps as outlined in the book. The measure of perfection of the evening review is every evening, and that's what I do.

If I do not do the evening review then I need to treat that as a relapse warning sign.

I gotto play chess with my son today.

I got to hug and kiss my wife today.

I got to laugh with the babies and the addicts today.

I lived, I loved, I laughed today.

Thanks be to God.

Tonight I tried to do my step 6 meditation.

The key to willingness is the conversion of the will.

I thought alot today about what Independence means in regard to the freedoms we have been blessed with in this country. I also thougt of independence in regard to freedom from dependency.

Tonight I met a guy named Chance who was 3 hours out of a treatment center. The story we read a our meeting was "My Chance to Live".

Our family went to a party at my sponsor's house. We stayed there until 12:30 PM.

This morning I read the daily scriptures Jn 20:24 about Thomas the apostle and when he saw the Lord and came to believe and said "My Lord and my God".
I decided to look up the elevation of the Eucharist at communion and found this quote in a blog and some other pages that corroborated it.

"Adore the Body of the Redeemer as the priest elevates the Host for our veneration. Say silently: MY LORD AND MY GOD"

"When the priest elevates the Precious Blood, say silently: BE MINDFUL, O LORD, OF THY CREATURE WHOM THOU HAST REDEEMED BY THY MOST PRECIOUS BLOOD"

Today I was very busy at work again and felt buried and worried at times but at the end of the day I managed to get into decent shape.

I didn't get to go to my noon meeting.

We had another good evening at home.

Thanks be to God.

This morning I woke up late and didn't have time for much prayer.
Today I was terse with my wife several times.
At the park I was rude to a guy who let his dog loose and scared my kid. He apologized but I was still rude. I also got so angry I could barely talk.
At the noon meeting I was judgemental about a guy's sharing.

These were my shortcomings today and I ask God to take them from me and show what corrective measures I should take.

I need to wake up on time tomorrow and pray.
I must apologize and tell my wife I love and appreciate her.
I will watch for the guy at the park and apologize to him if I ever see him.
I must keep my concern for sharing to my own and just do the best job I can.

Today at te noon meeting we read the last pages of the personal story "Jim’s Story". Before I got to the meeting I remembered what I had been thinking lately about keeping it simple when it comes to my sharing. I was able to focus in on two things the way that his actions matched those of an insane person and how the obsession was removed from him rather than him working on staying sober and how this came about from identification with another alcoholic.

I thought some more about the story I read in the grapevine today when my friend shared in the meeting.

"The writer spoke about getting into irritability and discontent and then spoke about having a realization of recovery and a perspective shift. But there was no talk of specific steps just the sort of anecdotal insight that he heard in fellowship. There is something to get from this."

Well what I got from this is what I often hear about people's experience in the program. People will often talk about some event that happened in their life and about how it was resolved "thanks to this program". But what they will refer to is some anecdotal insight or perspective shift that they heard or thought of. This is fine except that it isn't the program and therefore people who haven't worked the program develop an expectation that these epiphenies are the solution.

I experience these too but the real boon is the re-formation that comes from working specific steps and getting connected to a higher power that makes this possible.

I need to meditate on this more.

I was unnerved today by many tasks that I had to leave incomplete at work.

I got to play with the kids in the yard and neighborhood and ride bikes today.
I got to talk to my brother in Christ who lives in a different city today.

This morning I focused mainly on contemplation when I woke up. I have been missing this and was moved to this in the same way that my body tells me I need rest or water or specific foods. I got to read the daily scriptures from the mass.

Today I was extremely busy at work and at times was afraid of makimg mistakes.

At lunch I read a story from the grapevine. The writer spoke about getting into irritability and discontent and then spoke about having a realization of recovery and a perspective shift. But there was no talk of specific steps just the sort of anecdotal insight that you hear in fellowship. There is something to get from this.

Tonight I kept the two toddlers while my wife went to her meeting. We spent some quality time outside riding bikes and trikes in the circle. It is getting more fun to have kids.

Thanks be to God for another great day.