Last night I didn't do an evening review.

Yesterday I had a busy day and spent a lot of time outdoors in the 100 degree heat. It wasn't a bad day or terribly hard work or anything, I got to do much needed yardwork and play a lot with my kids. By the end of the day I was exhausted and irritable with my wife. Throughout the day yesterday I had a persistent sense of self-pity.

I really needed to do inventory last night.

This morning we planned to go to mass early as my wife had a lunch event planned with some family who were passing through. Early in the morning she or I did not get up. I kept telling myself that I couldn't do it if she didn't get up but the truth was that I felt terrible and couldn't wake up.

We never made it to mass but I did watch it on TV and make spiritual communion as best as possible with the kids being disruptive.

I had to nap throughout the day and at one point felt like it was 8 pm and the day was over. But it was not.

It was mid-afternoon and I got out of bed and decided to start over.

My mom was visiting and made us a wonderful enchilada dinner. My dad showed up and brought my son a much needed package of baseballs. My son told me the outcome of the afternon base ball game that I missed. We all had another great Sunday afternoon and I felt like God had restored me from my depression.

In the evening my wife had a re-sale transaction at the house so this gave me the opportunity to go to my 12-step meeting.

Before our meeting I got to talk to a guy about my experience in making it back from relapse by guiding others who were newer in recovery than me.

The topic of our meeting was a reading from "A Vision For You". In particular, "..you cannot transmit something you haven't got".

After the meeting a good friend shared his 5th step/confession experience with me.

I rode home with a vision of of purpose that was greater than my recent troubles at work. I thought of the passion of Jesus and found identification that helped put things back in to perspective for me. I visualized an idea that I can persevere in confidence despite whatever the outcome is so long as God's will is my primary purpose.

Thanks be to God for a vision revealed.