Yesterday was a difficult day for me but I persevered and got through it. At noon I got to go to the meeting. The topic was step 2 in the twelve and twelve. As we read the chapter I noticed some parallels to the parable of the sower. The chapter spoke of the person who had belief but had selfish or worldy motives. I thought about how the parable spoke of 4 dimensions of faith starting with the person who knew of God but faith never took root, then the person with a strong beginning but shallow faith that was short lived, then the one who has faith but hangs on to worldliness and his faith is choked out by anxiety, then the faith that grows in rich soil.

I always thought that you either had faith or you didn't but now I realize that there can levels of faith that are not deep enough to bear fruit.

Last night my wife got very angry at me because I fell asleep while she was out late and the kids went nuts in the house.

Today my other boss had a talk with me. This was favorable for my situation. My situation did not make sense to him. I wish I would have done a little better job of expressing my thoughts to him. But nevertheless I am grateful that my situation is getting an objective review. This afternoon we had a team meeting. I was able to be a good contributor.

Tonight I got to go to my meeting.

Thanks be to God for the fruits of faith.