Today I had a meeting with 3 of my bosses. It was not fun. I was grateful for one of them who wanted to help me build back up a buffer from termination but I left feeling as though things were not better. I felt humiliated and demoralized.

I feel like I don't deserve to be placed on the verge of being fired for "what could happen" or "who I might not respect". None of my mistakes actually cost or lost anything. None of my mistakes were outside of what you might expect from someone in the first year of doing the job that I do.

Nevertheless I must ask God to remove my resentment and fear.

This is no different than my previous inventory on this matter, I must simply turn it over to him and remember that the Father do'eth the works.

Today I thought mostly of myself.

I should have been more kind and loving with my wife.

Tomorrow I should try again to more fully trust that God will take care of us.