Yesterday I started out feeling fairly demoralized but I stopped and made sure to do a focused meditation in the morning.

I ended the day feeling a lot better although I was exhausted and fell asleep with one of my kids in my arms.

This morning I heard a priest talk about how important it is that we be willing to forgive others. He spoke about how important humility is in being able to forgive. I realized that I hadn't thought about forgiving those with whom I disagree right now. He also spoke of how we discern God's will. I almost didn't keep listening but I stuck with it. Then he said one of the most important things I have heard in a long time. He said that the adversary speaks in the form of desolation and that the Holy Spirit speaks to us as consolation.

Today at mid-morning I overheard a friend's conversation that opened a window of perspective that gave me a great new sense of freedom in my job situation. My friend spoke of his demoralization and of the history there. I realized that no one there is in great standing. I realized that I am not a bad worker. I realized that no matter how hard I try it is out of my control. I thought about how I can just do the best that I can for my own conscience and I will be ok no matter the outcome.

My feeling of desolation was broken, I felt connsolation come in.

I got to go to the noon meeting today.

We had a nice evening outside. At some point I felt a profound sense of privelege to have the children I have. I realized just how precious they are. I resolved not to manhandle them.

Thanks be to God for a great day.