Main Entry: dispensation
Part of Speech: noun
Definition: allocation of supply
Synonyms: allotment, appointment, apportionment, award, bestowal, conferment, consignment, courtesy, dealing out, disbursement, distribution, dole, endowment, favor, indulgence, kindness, part, portion, quota, service, share

I have been looking for a term that describes what happens in the mind when a thought first begins. When an emotion or desire first crops up in the lower parts of the consciousness and the psyche considers whether or not that thought can proceed to the next level or into the consciousness.

I believe there are several levels of the psyche and at the entry to each there is a checkpoint where a subconscious decision is made. The psyche decides whether or not to allow the thought through to the next level. The closer to the conscious mind that the thought gets the greater the possibility that the act will be done. Once the thought is into the conscious mind it has the greatest chance of making into action.

In the healthy person there is never any question that the answer to the thought of a toxic behavior is anything other than no. But, even if the thought makes it into the conscious thought it still isn't very powerful.

In the mind that has been conditioned by exposure to the behavior the thought blazes through the check points and then it is up to the conscious mind to struggle futilistically to make a choice that it doesn't have the power to make.

A belief in a higher power which precludes the behavior can be strong enough to obliterate the thought at the early checkpoints. The desire is stopped before it can proliferate in the higher levels of consciousness and the conscious mind never has to attempt to make a choice.

I believe this is where the higher power is more effective than the reason.

Today I realized that I am fanatically pro-life.

Today I am grateful that God gave me some insight to present a good idea on our forum at work.
Today I am grateful for support from one of our company leaders when some of my fellow employees were dismissing it out of hand.

I had a nice evening with my family. Thanks be to God.