This morning I couldn't find my glasses and my favorite hoodie coat. I realized that I may have left my glasses at the treatment center that I visited yesterday. I thought about my favorite Big Book that recently lost. I felt remorseful about the loss of these things that I am so attached to.

On my way to work there were two auto accidents that I had to stop and wait for. I also saw an unusual thing where a car was tailgating a cop and then the cop pulled into another lane and let the car pass and then tailgated the car. I wondered thought about how the crash might have been a drunk driver. I wondered if the tailgater was a drunk driver. The cop turned around and never pulled the guy over.

When I got to work my code didn't work for the alarm. The alarm went off and I had to notify security and call my boss.

Somehow I felt all of this meant something. I felt like these were a message. I think the loss of the things were meant to remind me not to be too attached to the material world. I think the crashes were meant to show me the consequences of attachment to the material world. I think the driver pushing the boundaries but not getting pulled over signified the subtle, cunning, seduction of sinful behavior. I think the alarm code not working was showing me that it's time to attend to something, maybe the sacrament of confession.

There was a striking, golden glow on the horizon this morning just before sunrise. I think this also was a sign of new era about to dawn.

Today I got to go to the noon meeting. The readings were pages 82 - 83. I got to read the two paragraphs about the tornado and the long period of reconstruction ahead. I got to receive the insight that amends are often just the beginning of an ongoing process. I think I must re-visit my amends for the coming Lenten season.

Two guys shared about how they disagreed with what the book says on some matters. They also described how they are going through some tough transitions. I suddenly felt a strong sense of unity with them both even though I disagreed with them I realized that even in our dis-concurrence we are still a part of each other's sobriety. I realized that each of the disagreements that they shared were things that I have shared about in my experience at other times I realized that the greatest opportunity for me to rebut these perspectives will be when I am sharing my experience for the sake of carrying the message on another day when I am not eve thinking of addressing them. This gave me a new sense of direction and motivation in my role in that meeting and in my willingness to participate. This also gave me relief about getting into disagreements with people. I don't have to fight them. I don't have to take on opinions head on. I just have to effectively carry the message in complete accordance with the principles and my experience. God will handle what other people need to hear.

Tonight my parents came to visit us and brought us a nice dinner. They delivered bad news about my sister. I had to resist telling them that I was overjoyed to hear this as I believe this may bring her to a point of willingness to change. I need to reach out to her.

Thanks be to God for a new awakening.