This Saturday I woke up thinking of a model of the will. I thought about the core of the will being instinct, intellect, and intuition.

instinct - the automatically programmed needs and emotions, sex, survival, fear, etc.
intellect - The thinking, computation, conception, etc.
intuition - The decision making and inexplicable inspiration like art, epiphany, creativity, etc..

I got the kids up and going and handled breakfast for them. I took on a project to make special pancakes for my autistic son. It took a lot longer than I thought and attending to the kids degenerated into a little chaos. By the end of the morning my energy dropped off.

My wife left at mid-morning for a staff retreat and was gone all day until 4:00. At mid-day the kids started getting more and more boisterous and I started having to hand out punishment and correction. I didn't have enough energy to keep up with them. I kept dozing off while they played and got into things and had disagreements with each other. I had to give sentences and timeouts and they didn't cooperate. I finally had to hand out naps. I raised my voice a few times, but refrained from yelling. I gave my oldest son a swat as a last resort. At one point he had mid-nap surrender but I didn't give in and made him take an hour.

Tomorrow I should try and make sure that I stay on top of their behavior and watch out to avoid raising my voice or hand at all.

By afternoon I felt wiped out, I got the dishes done but not much else. I managed to get outside in the late afternoon and do some minor yardwork.

My son and I played washers and we had some memorable fun. There was this one particular moment when he made two ringers. I let him win twice and he had a good experience.

My wife suggested it might be good for me to get out of the house and go to a meeting. She was right, I got to go and have great fellowship and heard inspired thoughts.

Thanks be to God