This morning I thought a lot about forgiveness eve for the most evil of men. I thought about how difficult it was to see and swallow the big chunks of truth about myself and see that I have the capacity for the most unsavory type of depravity. But in seeing this I saw that I was no better than the most evil of men. The insights were very beneficial but I believe that somehow I am being drawn into egoism over this.

Our meeting reading today was on step 11. I felt unprepared to speak about it, but probably heard what God needed me to hear and said what God needed me to say.

This evening the young boy who I suspect of sneaking into our house and stealing my son's electronic game showed up after being away for a month since the day that it went missing. I questioned him about it and didn't learn anything but I still feel resentful about it. I am not sure how to handle it. I believe that God wants me to forgive him. I believe that I must set boundaries but do must so without malice.

Amazing how I can know the capacity for forgiveness but struggle to execute it in the most simple of circumstances. I have to have God's help. God help me to see that this is a sick person, how can I be helpful to him.

There is the answer.

Thanks be to God