Today I got to go to the noon meeting. It was sparsely attended but we managed to talk for an hour. There was one guy there who was court ordered and probably not alcoholic. He was very gracious and I'm not sure what he thought. I questioned the effectiveness of the meeting but a friend with a long time shared about his struggles with something that I was able to speak to. A guy commented on forgetting about being an alcoholic and beginning to think we are more like normies than alcoholics and that is exactly what I needed to hear.

Today a guy at work had issues like I did 6 mos ago. He looked to me for some support, the only thing I could do was say that I had been through it also. I tried to call him tonight but I know that I can only offer moral support not advice. I think I need some of that myself.

Today I thought alot about the inner dispensation of thoughts. I also remember to apply the sign of the cross to dispense of bad thoughts.

Tonight all of us in my home seem to be struggling with low grade self will.

I am exhausted and just want to get to bed.