This morning I almost slipped back into my old slothful oversleeping. It really hurt to get out of bed. I had to pray intently to keep going. Predictably though, when I got going everything normalized.

I got to go to the noon meeting, we read from the personal story, "Because I'm an Alcoholic". I though of how AA answered 2 major why's for me. Why can't I control and enjoy my drinking (and using)? Why can't I control and enjoy my life?

I didn't even know that I had these questions because of the confusion of my mental state even though I asked them innumerable times perhaps daily. AA helped me see that I had the questions the AA gave me the answers. I couldn't control and enjoy my drinking because I am an Alcoholic. I couldn't control and enjoy my life because I have a spiritual malady.

I was grateful for a decent day at work, not too busy and not too slow. We even got to watch the space shuttle launch.

I looked up the schedule for confessions at the cathedral downtown. They have them at noon. I must get in their asap.

Tonight I had a nice evening with the wife and kids.

Thanks be to God.