Today each time I felt afraid or depressed about what we I am going to do to provide for my family I turned my thoughts to God's infinite resources and tried to believe with all my will that he will take care of us.

I strive to believe that He will give me a better job.
I strive to believe that He will put me in a better place to do His work.
I strive to believe that He will provide for us financially.

A thunderstorm struck in the middle of my son's baseball game today but his team won and he played well. The league had a barbecue event today that went on despite the rain. This all made for quite an adventure.

I got to spend some time with my father today and talk about the ups and downs of life and how faith helps. His words about the struggles of his mother and father were uplifting to me.

I realized today that one of the sources of my depression and fear is my pride of intellect. It offends me that I fail because I cannot remember information. This is not the only time this has happened to me, just the worst. I saw the common thread of resentment for people who measure intellectual capacity by the ability to memorize information.

I am valuing too much what people think me.
I am over valuing this particular ability.
I am not accepting God's work at some level.

Thanks be to God for this day.