This morning I felt like I found some moments of focus in the chaos of the tasks swirling in my mind. This feeling was fleeting but I worked on some daily task management and planning ideas. I committed myself to formulating this this week.

I got to go to my #2 son's field trip to the park today. He had a blast and was very happy to have me there and I loved seeing him playing in the water and laughing and jumping with delight. I was grateful for the opportunity to go. There was a small girl in his class that was born premature who is fed through a tube that made me very grateful for the life that God gives us.

This evening was my #1 son's baseball season closing ceremonies. I was resentful at the coaches that he didn't get picked for the all stars and some boys that are not as good as he is did get picked.

I am afraid that he will lose his joy in life because he doesn't get the trophy or the honor after trying so hard and doing so well.

I am not trusting or relying upon God enough at some level.

I feel like I let him down for not making a better effort to coach or get him on a good team.

I am grateful that he got to learn the meaning of loyalty, effort, sacrifice, and integrity this year. I am grateful that because of his contribution his teammates didn't have to be the team that lost all their games this year. I am grateful for the sacrifice that God made for me and I see that my suffering is laughable compared to God's.

Thanks be to God for a great life for my children.