This morning I got off to a good start and had a good sense of direction, I was glad to be back at home. After a lot of housecleaning and children maintenance I lost my sense of order. I tried my best to give my fear of this over to God.

The last two days I have been away on a trip and wasn't able to do a written review. I want to look back over the last two days to do some spiritual house cleaning and find my sense of order.

This Friday morning I had a very difficult time focusing on prayer. I repeatedly tried but had drifting thoughts. I finally had to stop and do some centering meditation. It worked and my restless mind became settled and focused.

During this period I had a thought about offering a friend of mine the use of my boat for his holiday trip. I called him and offered this but we ended up having a great talk about or spiritual lives.

He never called me back about the boat.

This Saturday morning I got resentful at my wife for insisting that we leave early on our trip but it blew over. we had a fun drive and a good day with the in-laws. It wore me out to constantly chase the kids and prevent things from getting broken. But we went to a couple of parks and this helped.

Saturday night my son and I thought we heard scampering footsteps in our room. I had to tell him that it was probably a cat on the roof. But it didn't sound like it was outside to me.

I had nightmares about an entity attacking and trying to devour me. I remember being in the grasp or jaws of a great beast an the more I fought the tighter the grasp. I had to surrender the fight in order for God to defeat the creature. It was very much like the dreams that I used to have when I was new in the spiritual life.

Sunday morning I felt very bad that we didn't plan better and attend mass.

I got the opportunity to have a great conversation about the recovery experience and the spiritual life.

We went to a Major League baseball game with my son's little league game. We had a great time even though our seats were in the nosebleed section and our team lost. We got to see Josh Hamilton hit a nome run. I don't think it was a coincidence that he just happened to be playing in that game.

I had just as much fun seeing the city's downtown site as going to the game and I made some fond memories with my kids that day.

After the game we had some difficult disagreements because I insisted on coming home rather than staying another night. Thankfully my wife came around and it was wise because everyone was at their limit.

This evening I got to go to a 12 step meeting and we talked about overcoming our closed mindedness. I got to give a good friend and spiritual guide a ride home and have a good talk.

Thanks be to God.