This morning I got to go to a meeting. The subject was principles before personalities and humility. I spoke about some of the humiliations that I suffered due to my alcoholism and about how the program gave me the opportunity to practice humility instead. One of the examples that I used was how I had focused on the world at large all my life and been dismissive of personal morality. I had to become willing to have an attitude shift and take a moral inventory. In the end i learned that this was the key to good living. I had to focus the attention of the inner life and on my personal conduct first. I had to re-order my relationship to the world and only then could live effectively.

After the meeting I was thinking of my mom and sister. I thought about calling them but as usual kind of balked out of vacancy for what to say. Then I thought about how I could tell my sister that I felt very worried when she went to surgery. I could tell her about how this hit home for me where her previous illness did not. Then I could also tell her about how this is making me aware of how distant we are and that I have been thinking about this and thinking that it started for us in our youth when we became centered on the material world and ourselves and not on our personal morality.

This morning my prayers were interrupted and I realized an hour later that I never went back and finished my morning offering. So I stopped by the washing machine and prayed.

Today I had impure sexual thoughts several times.
I went to see my sponsor today.
This evening I was a little grouchy and innatentive with the kids a few times.

Thanks be to God for this day.