Yesterday morning was very busy as my wife had to work at 8:30 and we still only have one vehicle. While dropping off the kids she started bickering at me for driving too carefully. At one intersection she griped at me for not pulling out in between the oncoming vehicles. She said that I had enough time (if I darted out there). I griped back and then went on to gripe at her about her temperament. I was embarrassed with the level at which I reacted, even if I was right. BTW, we got to to her job 40 minutes early.

This morning I read the daily reflections and thought about this alot.

I went to a meeting at 10:30, the topic was from step 12 on when to give and on burning into the consciousness of the new man that he place his dependence on God, not people. I talked about my anxiety over how to sponsor when I was newly sober and how the wording of the step "tried to carry this message" became the focal point that answered all my concerns about how and when to help. The step doesn't ask me to help him solve his problems, help him with his family matters, help him with money, or even to get the man sober. What is required is that I "try" to "carry this message" to him. With this as my objective I can to lead him to rely on God and He will solve all his problems. I first have to teach him to put first things first. That doesn't mean that I can't help with other things but I should be aware that material help or help with outside issues is not part of sponsorship or step 12.

As I was driving home from the meeting I started thinking about my friend and sponsor and I had the impulse to go by his place of business. But, I thought that I had no good reason to bother him at work. I had dismissed the idea but it kept coming up. Then I realized that today was the day that I was supposed to meet with him in the morning. So I went and saw him. We both recommited to sharing a list of unmanageabilities to pray for each other.

In the evening my son and wife kept me busy until late so I didn't get to write and evening review so I am doing it this morning for yesterday.