This morning I woke up at 8:00 am and got the kids going by 9:30. I tried not to worry about it.

I wanted to remember the following from the daily scripture readings:

Do not love the world or the things of the world.
If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
For all that is in the world,
sensual lust, enticement for the eyes, and a pretentious life,
is not from the Father but is from the world.
Yet the world and its enticement are passing away.
But whoever does the will of God remains forever.

I also read the following from the chapter of Luke from which the gospel reading was taken:
...when he was twelve years old, they went up according to festival custom. After they had completed its days, as they were returning, the boy Jesus remained behind in Jerusalem, but his parents did not know it.

At mid morning my wife got called in to work. This meant that I was without a vehicle and had to care for the kids all day.

I had the feeling like I was not doing the things that I should be doing and that I was living on borrowed time. However, I tried to be as productive as possible in home projects and cleaning.

After lunch I put the little one down for a nap and took the two tots out to the circle for bike riding.

In the evening I got to go to a meeting at the AA club in my old neighborhood. This club has a reputation for it's "progressive" atmosphere and tight knit membership which feels intimidating to me. I didn't want to go there for this reason but it was one of the only choices at 8:00 pm. Then it dawned on me that this is exactly where I need to go and that my approach is actually better suited for that type of atmosphere.

I talked about my experience with the lurking notion and how I learned that the lurking notion was not the secret desire to drink but rather the lurking notion that I was immune to alcohol. I also talked about how my relapses were preceded by a condition that I can only describe as a lurking notion that I was immune to powerlessness.

Thanks be to God for this day.