Today I had several aha moments. At the end of the day I struggled again to remember them.

I thought about how a key element of step two is to recognize that there exists a bias against spiritual matters and religion. I needed to see that I had not given spiritual matters an objective analysis. I had thought that I could not have faith because I was a reasoning person. But, I had been unreasonable about faith. I realized that when it came to faith matters my obstinate attitude was based on emotion not reason. This was how I was able to find faith. Perhaps this catharsis could be an approach that I could use with my sister.

When I carry the message centered around what is written in the book then I can speak with utmost confidence that will stand up to challenge.

I read today about the process of surrender as the way to fight addiction was like the Chinese finger trap. When I exert my will on my problems they grip me tighter.

I read today that the addict gets to live a high functioning life an that a person in recovery becomes "better than normal."

Tonight I got to go to a meeting and the topic was about the great reality within. Our Gospel reading today was about the visitation. Our priest spoke about the visitations we make and that we must carry the Gospel the way that Mary carried Jesus.

We all got to pray together this evening as a family.

Thanks be to God.