Tuesday, December 22, 2009

This morning I got up late but a little earlier. I got the kids up and I felt like we made a stride to get back on schedule. I immediately thought that today would be a good day for a bike ride.

I washed dishes and fed the kids and then did a review for yesterday. I had the feeling that there was a lot that I wished I could remember from my thought life about spiritual matters from yesterday.

I spent all day doing yard work in preparation for the dinner my wife was having with her cousins at our home tonight. In the solitude of my work I sought to get back the thoughts that I had in previous days but could not find them. My son helped me and I was grateful to build a work ethic in him. Afterward we threw the football some.

Tonight I got to go to a meeting. Our topic was prayer and meditation. I tried to remember a recent epiphany that I had about this subject but I could not. At least I think that I could not. I believe I had the insight when I was speaking to my sister or thinking about our conversation.

Perhaps if I write them out I can remember:

It may seem like it is impossible for a person with a job, kids, house, cars, commitments, and responsibilities to do this consistently and effectively but I am proof that it can be done.

Morning prayer and meditation is the daily process of behavioral planning and programming that is the most essential skill that a person must perfect in order to achieve a high functioning life.

When I pray I am connecting to God for love and power but I am just as much talking to me and telling myself that with God's help I resolve to conduct myself effectively in the behaviors that are most critical to good living.

When I pray and meditate I am striving to move out of my self centeredness and toward God and other centeredness.

I spoke about it tonight and shared a tired old story. I felt disappointed in what I said because I don't think I made the main point well. Perhaps I am just placing excessive expectations on my self

When I got home tonight my wife said that her dinner was a success.

Thanks be to God.

P.S. after writing this I read back over some previous reviews and I think that i may have found the insight that I was looking for. I believe it was in the building of faith. I had been thinking about the placebo effect and faith. I had thought about how critical it is to build faith on a daily basis through prayer and meditation so that when trouble comes and faith is needed most critically it has been cultivated to the extent that is efficacious.

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