This morning I thought about a character flaw where a person obsessively micro manages things to try and keep things in perfect order.  I believe this occurs where a person is very dependent on material world affairs.  I looked this up and it appears to be good ole OCPD.

 I also thought about the problem of self-sufficiency.  Not in the meaning of depending on self only but more on the idea of self-maintenance, particularly of the psyche.  I was thinking of reasons for faith and thought about how most people do not maintain their mental health and hygiene.  Most people operate on the presumption that the psychic apparatus is self-sustaining.

I also thought about how when I began the 12 step process that the process got me to take a deliberate look at all the stuff that I had presumed without knowing.  That I discovered the root of my inability to manage my life was based on these vacant presumptions.

I was home most of the day with the kids.  In the evening during their most rambunctious time I caught myself getting obsessively angry at them and I had to ask God for help to stop.  It worked.

Thanks be to God.