This morning I woke up still sick but in a short time was much better.  Being sick the past couple of days has affected my spiritual activities.  I noticed that my anger was aroused 3 times this morning.  Each time I resisted but it seemed to indicate some spiritual deprivation. 

I thought some more about the meeting topic last night about the need to exercise patience and tolerance in the family.  I thought about the reading about discovering gold and mining the limitless load.  I thought of how the disease concept of addiction was the first nugget.  This helped me to understand, accept, and forgive myself.  It helped me to face the truth of my nature.  I thought of how the spiritual malady was the next piece about how I discovered that my real problem was an unmanageable life.  I thought of how the program taught me that f I could see that others were sick too then I could be free of the resentment that is the symptom of the spiritual malady.  By viewing others as perhaps spiritually sick too then I could extend them the same forgiveness that I was given.

IN the afternoon I went with my wife shopping for some essential clothing on sale and I was afraid of our spending.

Later I got a call about a job interview.  I was very apprehensive about this as I am now enrolled in school and I don't see how I will be able to work and manage school.  When I think about how this could affect my sobriety program I get angry at my wife.  This is not fair to her and I will just have to take it one day at a time.  I found myself thinking that I should be grateful for this opportunity from God but fear keeps me from appreciating it.

I got to talk to a friend in recovery this evening.

Thanks be to God.