This evening on the way home I heard a discussion of Pope Benedict's latest encyclicle. In it he posits that we should take our daily disturbances to Christ and give them to him on the cross. He said this is a tradition that we have lost but we should consider re-viving. I thought that this sounded a lot like an evening review.

This brings up some thoughts I had today of some things I shared in meetings about my religion that I felt needed to be finished. At the treatment center the other day I was asked about what my spirituality. I shared some things in a general way but then maybe got too specific. Then I thought I didn't when I thought of what I really wanted to say. I said I was Catholic and I raise my kids that way. but it was an incomplete thought. The reason I wanted to say it was to point out that i made a spiritual journey and it led me back to my traditional faith. And that we have a faith filled home. I also said something confusing about reason. What I wanted to say was that I was able to find faith that stood up to reason. That reason led me to faith not away from it when I did it with an open mind.

At the meeting last night I said that recently I read that the teaching of my Church says that I am saved the minute I ask to be saved. But I still have to deal with the temporal consequences of sin. That's why I still have to do the work of inventory, prayer, amends, practicing principles and working with other addicts and alcoholics. That the balance of Church and 12 step fellowship is found in that statement. That I must go to Church and enlarge my spiritual life but my lay work must be in the 12 step rooms.

Today I went back to wok and I was very busy. I had a few moments of worry over missing work. Tonight as I review I remember my corrective measure from last night that i mustn't losing that job.