Wednesday, December 12, 2007

This morning I was late so I skipped breakfast. I don't usually do this, I'm one of those people to whom breakfast is the most important meal and I don't feel complete without it. So I thought about this and decided to skip it when I got to work and make it a mini fast.

I was grateful to think about reading the Daily Scriptures this morning.

I thought this evening about assigning my sponsees to read Daily Reflections for the new year. I called one and it was his birthday.

Tonight I had to stick to my new plan not to go to meetings at night anymore. When I came home tonight my wife was angry about the whole deal and said that someone had told her that we should give up our keys to the clubsince we aren't going to go to meetings anymore. I was resentful that she jumped to conclusions about what I meant without talking to me about it. I was resentful that she told someone about it before we made time to talk to me about it.

I talked to a fried tonight who said he is not really going to meetings right now just going to church. He said he is practicing the principles. He said he is going to the church under the bridge. He said that he gets more presence of God from under the bridge than in Catholic Church. He said this in a way that he presumed me to automatically concur with him.

I had a good talk with my friend about how I can get focused on practicing the principles and not on practicing the program. That I can begin to run on autopilot and begin focusing on virtues rather than practices. That I can begin to focus on being good rather than on being with God.

I wasn't so good with my wife, but I wasn't so bad. I reacted a little but I made amends quickly and looked at my reaction as a disturbance within. It doesn't matter what she did or what anyone thinks I just have to stay close to God.

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