Today at work I had a low grade fear, I must find divine perspective again.

I went to the meeting at noon I was not all there. The meeting was very crowded and I thought I recognized a new person there. Of all the people there many passed on reading and sharing.

When my turn came I read and shared minimally about the stages of admitting my first step in parallel to the segment that I read. I ended with the defining moment when I fully conceded after a series of relapses.

After me a regular person there with a lot of sobriety described being in a disparate state and about how it was due to new medication.

Even though I was distracted and I didn't feel that I did that great today I felt like showing up made a difference.

The past few das I have been tossing around some major ideas but haven't been able to find time to put them down in type. I feel resentful that I am losing these inspirations.

I must find acceptance.

Lately I have been postulating a model of the dynamic of the will in which the my will is the point in my point of view. I have thought about basic instinct at the center and concentric circles of will, decisions, and life skills moving outward.

Center
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Instinct
Impulse
Emotion

Stimulus
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Thought, cognition, intellect
Observation, sensation, reaction

Evaluation
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I can't think anymore.

Decisions radiating out and back in until they eventually move into action.





Tonight I saw a program about the scientific discoveries and theories leading up to the theory of the big bang. It was noted (albiet with a secular spin) that most of the theorists, Copernicus, Galileo, Newton, and Lemaître were religious men.

I got to practice baseball with my son.

Thanks be to God for another good day.