Today I went to the noon meeting late, we read from the 12x12 about step 11. I had to share after just arriving. I was disappointed with what what I had to say. I am not sure if this is because I have prideful expectations or because I am off teh beam a little. Tonight I realized that I have felt this way often recently.

After listening to Charlie Parker's talk last night I thought that I would take stock of my program tonight using the three sides of the triangle.

Unity
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My last three meetings were today, Saturday and Friday
I don't talk to or spend much time with people in the fellowship
My wife and I talk often about recovery and the spiritual life

Service
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Last night I worked on the CA website
Saturday night I spent some time giving encouragement to a former sponsee
Friday night I took a twelve step call from a family member and handed it over to my wife

Recovery
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My Review last night lacked inventory
I prayed this morning
Today I meditated about step 6 and about basic instinct

Today I thought about how people don't have any problem striving for perfection when it comes to things like cooking, sports, hobbies, arts, etc. But when it comes to character people lower the objective to "progress" rather than "perfection" to avoid becoming completely discouraged. Is this a form of rationalization to avoid God's will?

I need to re-read step 6 in the 12x12.

Tonight I took a bike ride by myself. Tonight I got to wathc a baseball game with my wife and son. I was very grateful that she got really into it. We had a great time.