Last night I had a pretty serious using dream. I was trying and trying to use but I couldn't seem to get it going. I was on some adventure out in the woods on the road, in towns with old honkytonks. I found someone's stash that was hidden and I made off with it. It was a large amount and it was very rocky and very potent. The vividness and strength of desire of the dream tell me there is a great spiritual disturbance within me.

This morning I got off to a rocky start. We got up fairly early but then after feeding the kids and myself and getting them cleaned up, I got real tired and passed out. I bickered with my wife a little and it went downhill from there. Later my son started having a meltdown and I had to punish him. We were late getting to Church and by that time my wife and I were griping at each other and very angry. I was thinking of all these ultimatums I would give her.

At the beginning of the mass, Father James said some words about letting go of our concerns and conflicts and worries of the week and day and to focus on our relationship with God. He reminded us of how Jesus sacrificed Himself for us and that we are responsible for our own sin and we should forgive others. He and the Mass and God helped us both forgive each other by the time we gave the sign of peace.

The rest of the day was outstanding. I worked on a flyer for the event next week and on an email blast. I got the house all cleaned up and had a very peaceful afternoon while the kids and wife went to a birthday party. I spoke to a sponsee and watched a football game.

In the evening I opened and locked up the club for the meeting. I got to hear a homily on the radio for today's scripture reading.

I should make amends to my wife for this morning.