Today I had self-centered doubts about our Christmas party.

During our meeting at work the topic of a drug testing policy came up. The discussion that ensued really codified the misconceptions of normies for me.

Tonight I had to stay home to help my wife with a sleepover of my son's friends. I was at first resentful that I wanted to go to a meeting but then I realized just how exhausted I was so it was probably for the best anyway.

I took the opportunity to do some servant service work.

This afternoon I had some thoughts about the disease and the steps. I hope I can bring them to mind. I will stop and pray to try to re-ideate them.

Recovery hinges on my willingness to have my thoughts and desires re-directed by a new source, God. I must come to realize that my will was previously directed by a flawed source, me.

This is not just the pivotus of recovery for the addict but also of conversion for the human being.

The first 3 steps, ego deflation, epipheny and conviction are what all people experience when they have a spiritual awakening.

hhmmm....