Tonight we are in a financial crisis. The income shortage we have been averting for a long time has finally caught up with us. We don't have enough money for our bills and we are behind on the mortgage.

My wife and I got into an argument about it but then cooled off and made amends. However I am worried about her as she doesn't seem to be able to do anything with her fear. I believe the only solution is going to be for her to work but I have to back off and let her come to this conclusion. We talked about it the other night and she has objections that she has to work through. I shouldn't try to manage her decision.

Tomorrow I go speak at a treatment center on family night. I am grateful but as I go through my story in my mind I realize just how unprepared I am. I need to work on it some more.

Tonight I got several phone calls from people in the fellowship that I couldn't take because I had my hands full. when I think about how people share in meetings about how important it is that people pick up the phone when they call I feel resentful because I can't do it all the time. As a matter of fact I rarely can answer it and I have a hard time finding time to call them back. I feel like everyone else has no idea what how hard it is to attend to 4 kids, a wife, a job, car, house, bills, laundry, cleaning, service commitments, meetings, classes, etc. to attend to and find time to talk to them about their feelings.

I am grateful that my surgery has healed and the pain has subsided.

I need to remember that we have been here before and that God has always provided.