Today was very busy from the start. Christie was out all night at the doorbusters sale so she had to sleep in. Two of the kids were sick. I did a lot of spring tyep cleaning and reorganizing. I had computer problems with the main one and the laptop. When Christie came home I had to set up the kid's new computer. Throughout all of this I managed to stay grateful and not get resentful. However, by the end of the day I felt isolated and withdrawn.

I went to a meeting and the topic was "Isn't he a victim of the delusion that he can wrest satisfaction and happiness out of this world if he only manages well".

I thought right away that this topic was relevant to me today. But I never could quite compose my thoughts about it enough to share. I felt really confused about it because it seems that I have a lot of experience and knowledge about this topic but couldn't seem to apprehend it.

Before and after the meeting I had the same feeling I had at home, that I was constantly being demanded to speak to someone. There were a couple of guys that asked me to work with them and several guys that needed to talk. One guy even seemed to get resentful because we got interrupted twice.

Despite my confusion and lack of sharing I still felt better after the meeting and was grateful that I got to go.