I was talking to a friend tonight and he mentioned that he discovered that some childhood trauma affected his sex relations. He found this out in the SLAA rooms at 22 mos. sober. This brought up my stream of thought about our traumatic past. He concurred with me that this is not a valid obstacle to working the program and making progress. He said that the process is actually necessary to get to a point to where outside help s useful and even that the process alone is sufficient to find peace of mind in God's time.

It occurred to me that the model might be that after our spirit has been stabilized and achieved some growth that then work on these traumatic events may just make it possible to achieve a fuller serenity.

This got me thinking, what is that state of "nirvana" if you will. I suppose it is the opposite of an unmanageable life. But the term "manageable" doesn't apply either. I supposeded it would be a "peaceful" or peace of mind life or...

Then it occurred to me, an inspired life.

That my personal inventory would be less about my shortcomings but more on the plane of inspiration.

Tomorrow we speak at the treatment center. I will look back to the last time we spoke for inspiration.