This morning I was afraid. I was afraid of how we will make it financially.

At noon I got to go to a meeting. The topic was the end of step 8 and the beginning of tradition 8 in the 12 x 12. These were tough topics to share on and several of our group passed or shared on where they are at today and their experience doing step 8. The reading was helpful because I got to see the core value of the step to repair the deep wounds in our subconscious that cannot be healed any other way than to make restitution once and for all. Or at least to make an effort to change our ways.

I shared about how this is part of the process of repairing the damage to the part of my psyche that is connected to the power that will restore me to sanity. This is like te initial disaster relief and the beginning of the long term rebuilding process.

I also wanted to share about how my experience with tradition 8 about how I once heard a guy tell his story and I almost got the willingness to commit to recovery but I felt like the only reason he could do this unreasonable program was because he worked at a treatment center and they let him take time out of his workday to do it.

I am grateful that I didn't go to work at a treatment center because I can say that this program can be done in real life.