Tonight I found myself angry at my circumstances and blaming my wife. I was angry that I wouldn't be able to do my eveing review for the 3rd night in a row because she went to her meeting.
- selfish
- inconsiderate
- resentful
> I am afraid that I will lose my momentum in writing every night.
> I'm afraid that design for doing my review every night is threatened

Last night i had vivid dreams of drinking, using and being attacked by various animals. One dream was particularly long and I spent a lot of time planning and anticipating using. I was amazed at how quickly my obsession starts to work when I don't work the full extent of the program. Right now I feel that I don't spend enough focus in prayer in the morning and enough time in review at night.

Still I don't feel like I am angry out of fear of using but rather because my wife is not doing things my way.

Both of these points are sure signs that I am squarely in self will.

right now the baby is screaming and my oldest is acting like an animal.

Once aga...