It just dawned on me that wishful thinking is a form of self will run riot.

I got to speak at family night tonight. My wife did the best she's ever done. The counselors gave me some nice support afterward. I saw how this is even awkward for them when they have to speak up so I didn't feel bad about not being perfect.

I thought how maybe when I do these things I can reach out afterward to those who would like to talk but are too humble to approach the speaker.

I could do better but I'm ok with how I do now.