Today I thought about emotional sobriety. I thought about thinking of emotions as a mind altering substance than a feeling.

I also thought about sharing more on the hopeless feelings rather than the most shocking excesses I went through.

I heard a guy call step 10 the "pay attention" step.

Toay was VERY busy at work again but I thought about how lucky I was that my busiest day at my new job is a walk in the park compared to my last two jobs. I was also grateful at how the last two jobs prepared me for my current job.

Tonight I found myself getting angry about something my wife was doing. I thought about how I needed to stop and pray. I found myself detested by the idea as it brought my blamestorm to a screeching halt. It helped me to think of my emotion as a mind altering substance.

I got to talk to a grasshopper today. He talked to about a lot of things going on in his life mostly good. But he casually referred to how he quit smoking. It really struck me what a miracle it was.

A short time after I prayed for God to take my anger I had a moment of good fortune. This made me think of the idea that good deeds bring good fortune. I thought of how this is a common feeling that most men share even if they don't believe in God. Most people call it good Kharma. I remembered that this was a piece of my coming to believe.