In looking at my day I thought of a low grade fear that I have of what people think of me in my work. I guess you could call it vocational insecurity. I feel a general sense of discomfort and low self-esteem over my lack of mastery of job skills at my new job.

• fear

Last night after work there was a company social event at a downtown bar. Two of the guys at work were feeling under the weather. Both of them talked about going other places after the event which meant more drinking. Neither of them acknowledged a connection between more drinking and the way they felt. I saw the way that the "power of the effect" deludes our thinking so that our minds defend us from the truth about the consequences of drinking. I can't say that these guys are alcoholics but I can see how anyone can be affected and perhaps this points to the fact that alcoholism can be developed. That it doesn't have to be inherent. That it can come from toxification

• I was grateful that I don't suffer from that delusion today

Tonight I got to work with Robert to get him to step 3. We discussed the points, asked the questions, said the prayers.

• I was grateful for the opportunity for spiritual vitalization

I got to go to Circle and Triangle tonight. It was the first time I got to go to a mtg in the new place at Cumberland. The topic was step 11.

Corrective Measures
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I pray that Go remove my fear of vocational insecurity