This morning I found myself getting resentful at my wife for running late. I blamed it on her overdoing the eents with the kids. I started to think about how this always affects us and our ability to maintain our lives. I had to stop the blamestorming than began to ensue in my mind.

At church I found myself being fault finding with her and my son for going to the bathroom during mass. Particularly right in the middle of important rites. When it came time to give each other a sign of peace she noticed that I seemed irritated. After the mass I made amends and explained that I was having trouble making peace with myself. This is true because I was experiencing excessive anger over something that I merely needed to talk to them objectively about later. I was feeling the need to correct them immediately and with malice.

The interesting thing about this was that the readings and homily were about real contrition, humility and devotion as being the way to God and not self-righteous legalism and judgement of others.

I think I will stop right now and make a better amends.