Tonight as I sat down for this review I prayerfully considered what I was about to undertake. In so doing my train of thought led me to pray to the Holy Spirit. I prayed that i breathe in the Holy Spirit and be cleansed of my shortcomings today and be renewed for the evening. For a good night's sleep to be renewed for tomorrow. To be able to start anew tomorrow and be prepared to be of maximum effectiveness for God.

I was sick this morning and had to go back to bed after feeding the kids. I felt very weak and slept very hard. I was afraid that I might not make it to mass and this would be two weeks in a row. Christie got mad at me for leaving the kids unattended in their room and going to bed.

We were able to make it to mass. I was grateful to be there but was so distracted that I forgot that I would be taking communion up until just before. As I said "amen" and took the Eucharist time seemed to slow down and go into "ghost echo" mode like in the movies. As I walked away the wafer I felt the wafer break slowly into large peices in my mouth and I experienced a moment of ecstacy and gratitude. I felt a wave of emotion come over me and I almost cried in gratitude for what God has done for me.

Later today I was cautious abot getting rest and not overexerting myself so I wouldn't get sicker and so I would make it to work ok. I was remorseful about not getting the yardwork done. Now that I look back I realize that I was again afraid of losing time. I recall that I have resolved to pray to have the fear of losing time removed.