This morning when I was praying I realized that I haven't been able to effectively or consistently do the contemplative part of my meditation for some time now. So I put in the time and experienced how my ability to stop my thoughts and focus on contact with God has become very distracted. I was grateful that I was able to do it eventually.

Later we went to Lady Bird Lake park. My wife and I took the kids for a walk and they loved it. I reflected on how much my perspective has changed and how I love to do little family stuff like that now.

I was afraid today of letting my oldest son go 400+ miles to Midland with my parents today. I almost called it off and felt very justified in this. My son told my wife that he really wanted to go because he really wanted to see my sister (his aunt) because she is so far away and he needs to stay connected with family. When my Dad came over he was really concerned that my son might change his mind and really wanted him to go. I was grateful for guidance to set aside my fear.

Tonight I went to the Stepping Stones meeting but not before going through some internal dialog about whether or not to go. I decided to go out of a sense of obligation. As soon as I left the house I was struck with enthusiasm. Several people shared a similar experience. It's one that I commonly hear. The topic was the last 2 pages of We Agnostics. In the story the man hears an inner voice. I reflected on how this is evidence of a spiritual archetype. I had an inner voice all along when I was agnostic. When I had my revelation, I felt the presence of God had been in me all along. My belief felt absolutely true because I knew all along.

Someone shared about how they always answer their phone at work for calls from the felolowship.

Corrective Measures
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I should start answering the phone and returning my calls
I should become willing again to go to a meeting every day
I should call my sponsees