Tonight I am irritated because it's late and I can't get to this review. I am just trying to turn from my anger at my wife and pray for it to be removed right now. It's not her fault but my mind wants to blame her for going shopping and leaving me with the kids last night after her meeting and then for dragging her feet getting the kids to bed tonight.

No matter what the circumstances the disturbance is within me. I can only affect what is in me. I can't or shouldn't do anything about her. I am dragging yesterdays baggage into this moment and it is making it worse. I am hyper-irritable because of my nature as a dis-ordered spirit.

All this observation is helpful but isn't the source of my relief. The bottom line is I must access God's power to transform me within. I am absolutely certain of this power.

Last night I didn't get to do my review. Right now I am very concerned about being disciplined about this work and am valuing it highly. Perhaps too much so. Last night I was by myself with the kids and bent on getting the kids to bed and getting to my review. Then my 3 year old started throwing up. He vomited all over himself in his bed. Then just as I was finishing cleaning it up he vomited and choked on it in our bed.

This set me back so far that it was midnight before I knew it and I just had to go to bed.

I thank God that he is ok and that he was just sick from eting too much cheese. I also thank God that he has a great mother who took good care of him this morning.

But I am still selfish I am still thinking mostly of myself.

At noon I got to go to a meeting.

I can hear the baby and her mother so I must end this and go help. Today was a good day. I got to do Halloween with the kids and my son was able to have a great time.