This morning I thought I may have passed my kidney stone but I couldn't be absolutely certain. At midday I thought about stopping taking my medication. I all but made up my mind. At the end of the day, I talked to my sponsor about it and he pointed out to me that I was not following the doctor's directions. That I had to be certain that It was passed or I may have a worse consequence and a more prolonged period of medication.

Tonight I made certain to attend to my recovery program. Actually God did for me what I couldn't do for myself in that I ha forgotten that my schedule has been shifted later tomorrow. So that ended my internal debate over whether or not to go to a meeting.

Today at work I took more initiative to take other guy's calls. I was very busy all day and hed to solve problems that helped me to learn more. I just felt an overall sense of renewed confidence in my prospect of being able to learn the system well enough to have dealers assigned to me at the end of the month.

I didn't idle and surf at work today.

Tonight at the meeting I felt confident to take notes and talk about the reading from Bill's story. I'm not sure how well understood I was but I didn't regret what I shared. I think my perspective on this was more limited than usual. But it was still my genuine experience.

Tonight Kevin helped me reflect on "knowing Jesus" more. I find that He is a real person that is with me often. I sense what he looks like and his expressions and his mannerisms. I feel his presence and guidance and companionship. I lie in the arms of the father often. He is older and very wise and powerful. I feel secure and loved by his countenance. I feel infused wih the Holy Spirit. Like a rush of cool air that illuminates me. I don't know the scriptures well, I don't have many years of experience. But I have this time with him every night and every morning.

God, thank you for blessing me with your love.

Corrective Measures
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Tomorrow I should be a better demonstration of my faith at work
I should be more kind and loving to my wife
I should be patient with the kids
I should set aside my desires and find joy in my work at home
I should check my willfullness in spiritual advice and matters