Last night I had bad dreams. I didn't remember them clearly in the morning but I woke up several times with flashes of nightmares. I think God protected me from experiencing them with clear memories in my conscious thought. What little I remember was that they were very frightening and seemed to involve attacks from malevolent spirits on a different plane of existence. I attribute the disturbance to the drugs I'm having to take for my kidneys.

I tried to stop taking the medication this morning but took it at mid-morning when I thought I felt suspicious pain come back. I feel uncertain as to whether the stone is passed.

Today I was very busy the entire day at work. I was blessed with usefulness.

This evening I was very tired and can't wait to get to bed. It seems to have been an uneventful day. I didn't get angry or resentful with anyone. I thought about gratitude alot and about Kevin and about God and other friends and my family and my wife. I didn't really have any time to do anything tonight as I didn't get off work until 5:30 and I had to take care of the kids tonight while Christie went to her meeting.

I was getting my stuff ready for tomorrow and I saw a program on that disturbed me. It was a seemingly harmless show about Austin. But I saw people who's lives revolve around Godless pursuits. I saw people who spend all their time caring for bats and other animals. Not that there's anything wrong with these activities per se, but it was the amount of effort, time, resources and adoration that went into these things that caught my attention. I see this differently now. I see how people substitute relationships with animals for people.

I saw a freemasonry temple luring in children with theatre programs and teaching them to center their attention around what makes them feel good. I saw how people try and feed their spiritual needs and pursue moral ways of life in ways that are empty and devoid of real love and fulfillment.

I wasn't so much focused on those people but on the way they live and how I lived for so long. I see how the enemy works.

I pray to continue to be willing.