This morning I woke up so tired that it hurt. I had to restrain myself from blaming Christie. I had to see that my wellness was threatened. This was where my blamestorm came from. I sought gratitude for a good wife as my remedy. I resolved to see that I am responsible for my sleep but that my pain would pass and the time with her last night was worth it.

Today I criticized her for spending money on portraits of Eva when she sent me an email with links to the pictures. When I came home I apologized and enjoyed the pictures with her. I let my financial fear come between us. I looked at how I haven't done anything to use our resources to take portraits.

This evening Christie had to help a couple through a difficult problem. Their child was harming them in his addiction and they had to call the police and conront him. They also needed help with kids. I was very proud of her for helping them. We got to share our experience with them together.

Tonight we shared the scripture study on psalm 22 from my last class. It is a scripture about tests of our faith in times of suffering. It was synchronous with the evening's events. We prayed together before bed. I was too tired to do this review but woke up later with the baby.

When I have hardship I will strive to see that I will come out stronger in faith in the end.
I will remember the desparation I felt in my suffering and continue to serve the Lord effectively in gratitude and joy.