Yesterday I thought I may have passed the kidney stone but I'm not certain. I didn't take any medication today. I felt progressively worse, less energy, loss of focus, inability to concentrate and finally exhausted this evening. I think I'm feeling pain but I can't say for sure. I'm afraid the pain is going to have to get suddenly severe like last time before I can be sure.

Today at work I felt some lack of resolve to be an example of the spiritual life. Some persons kinda got on my nerves. Fortunately I didn't get tested on this resolve openly, just internally. I realized that my resentment was based on my need to be the center of attention. For whatever reason this old dependence cropped up. In a God centered worldview I do not have to be the God of those around me. I am not my own God either.

I did ok helping customers today.

On my way down the street after work I ran into the homeless guy I give to. I wasn't redy, I was confused and I thought I didn't have any change. I tolf him no "I don't have any". I felt a little guilty but not too bad because of my state. Then I realized that I did have spare change.

Tonight I set the tv to a religious program that I really didn't want to watch but there was nothing else on and I had to feed the baby. There was a famous person on bearing witness to the benefits of living the spiritual life. He talked about his worldy success and his mental breakdown. He talked about being sober but being spiritually sick. He talked about his conversion and his new life. I feel lifted up now.

Today was another "Best day of my life".

Corrective Measures
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I will be more eager to help.
I will stop and check to see if I have change.
I will trust in God to get me through this little difficulty with my health.