10/23/07 8:00 AM

Yesterday when I got off of work I was exhausted. All I could think about was going to sleep. At home I cooked dinner, got the kids fed, did some cleaning and started to get ready for a meeting. I figured I couldn't make it without a power nap. I laid down at 6:45 and never woke up until 11:50. I went back to bed and slept until the morning and I still had a hard time getting going. I never did an evening review that's why I'm doing it this morning.

The day yesterday was a bit of a down day. I had to catch my slight depression a couple of times during the day. When I did, I sought gratitude and it worked.

At one point in particular I was walking down the street and felt as if I were being sucked into a whirlpool of self pity. I prayed for return of inspired thinking and the thought of well-being through helping others came to mind. I looked around at the people I saw and thought of their suffering and prayed for them. The change I felt was immediate. I felt like I was in a new world. I looked around with a new set of eyes and a new heart and felt joy in my life again.

As I returned home the thought came to mind of the BB quote "who was I to say there is no God?" And a recent inspiration that I haven't thought through came back to mind. I related this to the idea of contempt prior to investigation. I thought of my poor skepticism in light of the limited scope of my research and knowledge on the subject. I thought of my recent observation of the volatile feelings that arise when we talk of spiritual matters with those who don't believe.

I don't remember much of the specific nature of my shortcomings yesterday but I do remember being feeling down and seeking renewal. Sometimes I was slow to act so I could do this better today.

I also didn't call the doctor like I should have so I should do this today.