Sunday, October 21, 2007

Last night I was resentful at Christie for getting angry with the baby and the kids every time they woke her up. I was selfish because I didn't consider how many times she had to get up with the baby overnight. I selpt real good while she had to get up every 2 hours, make a bottle, fed the baby and burp her til she was ready to go back to sleep.

This morning I felt frustrated when our middle child wanted his special cup with water which I had just given to little sister with milk. I had to stop my brainstorm and try to be flexible and consider the best solution might be to start over. I washed and switched out cups and everybody was happy. This isn't a big deal except that i considered it a lesson going forward.

I will try to stop when agitated or doubtful and try to be flexible.

Today in reflecting back on the convention I remembered a couple of times when women crossed the boundary of platonic friendliness and acted in a way that offered more. I realized that I haven't been inventorying this and I need to make sure not to ignore it.

This evening I yelled at the kids a couple of times. Once for pouring out half a can of coffee and another time for talking too much.

Christie got frustrated with the church staff today for the chaos in the balcony and for the lack of childcare. I had to resist the impulse to take her inventory and try to fix her inability to focus.

This morning before church I went out on the deck in the springlike morning and had a cup of coffee and studied the scripture readings for the mass.

Fr. James spoke of celebrating All Saints Day and All Hallows Eve and not just celebrating the secular Halloween.

This afternoon Bobby Jr. and I watched the Cowboys beat the Vikings. I reflected how empty a life based on sports scores is. This evening I spent time outside with the kids.

The past few days I've been in regular contact with my sponsor

Corrective measures
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I must not yell at the kids in anger

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